met the woman of my dreams back in 2010 but 150miles apart,she out of 20yr relationship he infertile with 15yr old son,normal build up in love seeing each other but never meeting her family,planned to be a family to have a baby with my daughter,got address online and turned up there xmas eve 2010,he didnt like it so kept son away all xmas some manipulation there,all ok then back to mine new yr,he turns up textin her he wants to talk about son but didnt bring son they had all xmas apart i followed turned up outside pub,she sore me and left in tears,all ok til feb 2011 get engaged then a week later she confirms pregnant im a stranger there not met anyone,all effort on her part stops,i keep makin trips to see her and we stay at sisters but never go out mmmm so we not seen together her pregnant with me,all visits end,i just get scans text to me i miss out completely even our birthdays,by september 2011 i move there at this point hardly see her takes her 3 weeks to come,she does and her waters break,goes back to her mums i dont hear anything,i phone hospital shes had baby i get there a day late like i shouldnt be there,she doesnt come home to me so i lose out and get ill with worry and depression,weeks go by see them a few times but still no birthcertificate done,so its dec 5th 2mths old i ring up office they say he been registerd i go pick up copy to find im not on there and the address is her ex,never wants to be with me like he is threatning her,ruins my xmas my sons 1st broken hearted i just feel suicidal all the time cant work at all not allowed to go see her and my son have to wait for them come to me..strange discreet people say he pushing my son about this angers me,i send flyers to notify area that she my woman and thats my baby,2yrs together only 3mths in bits spent together,ive missed 50weeks of my sons life i moved here to be a family for him and now shes expecting my daughter or twins this nov/dec didnt register preg til 2weeks ago and shes now 7mths,ive not seen them for 8 weeks i cant go see them wont let me i just want to be family and raise our kids exclusively its breaking my heart ive missed 21mths of preg and life of my new son plus its all happening again now she pregnant i fear he wants her and my kids,our kids most important they should not be denied real mum and dad they should be equal to our 1st borns and have same chance,ive lost sleep i dont eat im depressed all the time i cant work i lost my licence for caution against him,the relationship has been 99% txt and facebook,could it be him,is she really scared of a repeat of him 20yrs of hell,does she just want kids and no man,does he want her and my kids,she had no kids for 16yrs then 1 and another due in december is it just shock and fear?why would she want kids and no father around?says shes scared doesnt know whats wrong if its hormones or not says shes fat and wont come near me while pregnant but its ok for her ex to be around,im here now they our kids cant be secret or discreet,thats how it is as we have never been seen together where she lives so if he around they gonna think baby is his even though he black my kids white,i moved here determined not to lose my son so if i didnt move whose to say they not together and pass baby of as his,then how can you live a secret like that and wouldnt it cause problems would he resent i dont get it im confused living in the twilight zone my kids and naturally i want joint control,its his birthday next week i fear not seeing him or a pathetic 1hr drop of like he a parcel that my son he better than that same with xmas not allowed together has he wont let his son near me,i keep shouting that this will muck kids heads up in the future we must try and we must have normal,its like family dont want me here im invisible i get feeling they want him around as dad